Islam? Why I am?

Ooops!

Actually, I have been born with moslem. I can say that I am moslem because all my family is moslem. I never ask anything about why I am moslem. All people in my family, my society, mostly moslem.

It began long time when I got Senior High School (S 4). I remembered the day when the discussion about moslem and other religion became serious between my friends. For information, Indonesia recognizes 5 religions: Islam, Catholic, Protestant, Hindu, and Buddha.

I begin ask myself why I am not Christ, Buddhist, or Hindu? Will I became Islam if I am not a moslem? Will I open my heart for something that you have to submission because you know, it is all what you want? I know it will getting hard to change the religion.I tried to change too, but it is difficult because I cannot find a reason why I should.

I still try to change to others, but none can not tell me more than Islam. I am almost giving up. I think I am giving up. 

Now, its all is pain.